Dreams of life

After a sequence of nonsense dreams, I woke up and couldn't fall asleep again. This is not the first night at which I couldn't sleep well since the beginning of the semester. In fact, it happened almost every night.

It seems I am facing the unparalleled challenge in my life. It's surely my own decision to take it. However, in some way, I feel it's God's intrigue. He set up such a trap by offering me a hope which I couldn't resist. He knew exactly that my romantic fantasy would entice me to accept it regardless of the price. But, what was His motive? Is He trying to disillusion me when I think I can make it?

It's not a matter of success and failure. My life is full of color after all.